Woke up: 118.8 lbs

Literally want to cry. Clearly this is all water weight, but it still messes with my head when this happens. No sign on my menses so I think it’s time to accept it won’t come this month. I’m not sure why this happens every time I try dieting.

Meal 1

7.5 tbsp eggbeater

3 oz Brussels sprouts

Meal 2

113.5g Greek Yogurt

1 piece whole wheat toast

1 tbsp peanut butter

2 oz Brussels sprouts

Meal 3

2 oz ground beef

1 piece of toast

15g cashews

Meal 4

1 Oatmega bar

Meal 5

1 small Gala Apple

15g cashews

Meal 6

2 oz of shrimp

2.7 oz of potatoes

2 oz of cauliflower

Again, not on track today. Didn’t meal prep at all since all we did yesterday was still eat out. Luckily, there isn’t any real junk food in the house so none of that again. However, macros are all over the place right now.

Tomorrow. I promise tomorrow will be a better day! 😭

No pictures today because I literally have been rushing back and forth from school to the apartment. First day of classes today and I’m trying to stay on top of everything.

I was extremely scared to weigh myself this morning but luckily I wasn’t too overweight haha.

Woke up: 117.0 lbs

Unfortunately, today did not go as planned. Literally ate out again, had ice cream again and then had Mac and cheese for dinner. I love my boyfriend to death but it is SO hard to eat clean with him around. I really hope this week we don’t have any cheat meals.

Meal 1

7.5 tbsp of EggBeaters

1 piece of toast

2 oz of bell peppers

1 oz of broccoli

15f cashews

We wound up taking a nap after meal 1 – I guess we were still tired. Woke up around 11 and decided we would have a chocolate chip cookie as a pre-workout.

We went to the gym just to do a quick WOD and then of course, went to our favorite brunch spot to have smoked salmon eggs Benedict.

Meal 2

3 oz smoked salmon

2 flapjacks

2 poached eggs

1 cup of fruit

When we got home after brunch, we indulged in an oatmeal raisin cookie sandwich. I feel SO guilty about today. Yesterday was okay especially because it was already planned but today was not.

Luckily the semester is starting and there won’t be any time to go out and eat. Therefore, we should be able to stay strict with the diet. This goes to show everyone that life sometimes happens, but you have to just embrace them and do better the next day.

Meal 3

Entire box of Mac and Cheese

So this goes to show everyone that being site to on a diet takes a lot of effort. I’m aware I cheated so much today and all I can do at this point is just make sure I get back on track! Tomorrow is Monday, so let’s aim for better goals! 🤗

Cheat day! I won’t lie that having this blog to hold me accountable has been the best decision I’ve ever made. Although I do love food, I do enjoy eating out and I do love Cheat days, I feel so bad having to report everything I eat here so it helps me stop myself from going too overboard.

Anyway, today was quite a day!

Woke up: 116.6 lbs

Not really sure why I woke up a bit heavier today seeing that I ate all the right macros if not a little less, but I think it’s because I’m getting my menses any day now. (Unless it decides to not come again like all the other times when I tried to diet)

Meal 1

20 grams of Whey

14g of Gatorade powder

Meal 2

3 oz of smoked salmon

2 poached eggs

2 small flapjacks

1 cup of fruit

Meal 3

All American burger

1 sunny side egg

I did not eat any of the fries because although it was cheat day, I just felt horrible eating all those carbs. That burger though – that I demolished! It was amazing. I’m a sucker for burgers 🤪

Meal 4

Coconut ice cream gingersnap cookie sandwich

As you can see, cheat day was insane today. Let’s see how much I weigh tomorrow morning !

Closing in on the first week, folks! I must say – yesterday was extremely tough for me. I went to the supermarket to buy some groceries, just a few things, and all I kept wanting to do was buy all the junk food I love. I wanted to binge so badly and eat my emotions away. I was so close to throwing all of this away and then I stopped. I thought, how can I do this to myself? What really put a halt to these cravings was the thought of disappointing those that will eventually read my blog.

It’s only been week 1 and I’m supposed to be building better habits. I’m supposed to be stronger than the temptation. So I walked away, bought the two out of three items I went to the store for, and got in my car.

When I got home, I unloaded the groceries and went straight to bed.

I woke up at 4:30am again after going to sleep around midnight. You can already imagine the frustration! But, I had to pee. And, that meant it’s time to rise and shine.

I was having a slight stomach issue since last night – might have been all the veggies I had. So I waited until I used the bathroom in the morning to weigh myself for the day.

Originally seconds after waking up and peeing, I was 116.4 lbs. I later peed again and pooped (didn’t eat or drink anything; also it was probably 15 minutes after the first weigh in) and now:

Woke up: 115.8 lbs

Meal 1

3 oz Ground Beef

2 oz Broccoli

20 almonds

No carbs for meal 1 today coz’ today was a rest day! 😓

About 4 hours later, I had meal 2. Technically it was BREAKFAST since my boyfriend had just waken up. We had the usual:

Meal 2

7.5 mL of EggBeaters

1 piece of toast

2 oz. bell peppers

After debating and having petty little disagreements, we drove to the sunflower field. Cute little farm in Sanborn, NY. Took a few pictures and got to pick our own flowers. My boyfriend has been exceptionally patient with my behavior recently. Due to all the stressful decisions I have to make about my future recently, I’ve been very irritated and overall unbearable. Fortunately, my boyfriend understands my situation and is usually very good at calming me down. I truly do appreciate him and I tell him this all the time.

Once we got back from the sunflower field, we had our third meal of the day. We had some left over shrimp that we decided to split, so I had to different types of protein today.

Meal 3

2 oz of chicken

1 oz of shrimp

2.7 oz of potatoes

2 oz of Brussels sprouts

15g of Cashews

After running some errands we stopped at the grocery store for some bananas and Greek yogurt. Oh, and some cookies for tomorrow’s “cheat meal”. (Side note: I’ve been trying my best to fit in a cheat day once a week because my boyfriend truly hates dieting. Plus he looks forward to cheat day and I gotta make my man happy…and my tummy, of course!) So tomorrow while volunteering at HFH we are having some cookies for lunch. And then later in the day after some cardio, we are going to get that Churn ice cream cookie sandwich I posted the other day.

My last real meal happened around 630pm and it was:

Meal 4

4 oz of chicken breast

1 oz of potatoes

36g of cooked white rice

2 oz of Brussels sprouts

My last meal was clearly my casein mud. I tried making casein cookies for my boyfriend and they turned out meh. We need to figure out a way to make these more delicious. I stuck with what I’m used to and you can never go wrong with the casein mud. Here’s a picture of the attempt to make casein cookies.

Meal 5

20g of Vanilla Casein

16g of Peanut Butter

Till tomorrow, y’all! Week 1 done! As you can see it wasn’t perfect, but consistency is key.

P.S A little side note on my mood today. I was ridiculously moody and depressed. I’ve been crying every other hour and I was getting upset about random things all day. Not sure if this is due to my menstrual cycle starting soon or if it’s all the stress. I’m hoping this goes away soon. Luckily I have the most supportive boyfriend so he makes life much easier. God bless him ❤️

Be|mindful

Woke up: 116.2 lbs

Alright, my body has officially gone nuts! I slept 5 hours today and I swear I tried to go back to sleep, but my eyes popped open at 4:30am and there was no chance I was sleeping again. I had no other choice but to stay up. I read a little bit of biochem while I let my boyfriend sleep an extra hour before I started bugging him it was time for the gym.

Honestly, I should have just let him sleep. He was THE amazing boyfriend again! He let me sleep while he finished doing my laundry. I’m positive he slept about 4 hours. I swear, I don’t know how I got so lucky. I don’t deserve him! I love him to death for everything he does for me.

Anyway, nutrition! Meal 1 was whey and intra workout carb since we weight-lifted this morning.

Meal 1

20g of whey protein

14g of Gatorade powder

My post workout meal was on the go again. My protein was Greek yogurt, carbs were a piece of bread and half of a banana, and peanut butter for my fats. Didn’t include veggies in my meal, but don’t worry I made up for it later!

Meal 2

114g of Greek yogurt

1 piece whole wheat bread

56g banana

1 tbsp peanut butter

So, today the unexpected occurred. I was scheduled to volunteer at the hospital today, but plans changed and I wound up at work instead. I didn’t think I was going to be gone from my apartment for more than 4 hours so I never packed food. A planned 4 hr volunteer work turned out to a 6 hr day at the office. I had a pre-med advising meeting scheduled for 230 which I had to postpone to 3pm. As you can imagine, I went straight to my meeting after work and didn’t get home until 430pm. That’s when Meal 3 happened:

Meal 3

2 oz of shrimp

3 oz of broccoli

85g of frozen mixed vegetables

6 oz of red and orange bell peppers

2.7 oz potatoes

You see! I made up for my veggies! Haha luckily this stopped my hunger. I was starving and scared I was going to binge! I went for a 30 minute walk with my boyfriend and then I got ready to go work again! I took a protein bar with me so make sure I have something to eat later!

Meal 4

1 Oatmega bar

Once I got home, I got ready for bed. Read a little bit of my coursework and had my casein mud. Yum!

Meal 5

20g of Casein

1 tbsp peanut butter

I want you all to know today was a hard day. I really wanted to binge so badly. I wanted to just cry. Actually, I did. I balled out in tears the second I got in my car. The second I realized that I have to put in my 110% if I was to pursue my dreams. It’s not going to be easy, but if I really want this – I have to act now. I have to give it my all. You can see how frustrating this is for me. I wish I had the guidance I needed when I was younger. I wish I was more proactive and aware of how much my choices back then will affect my future. I can’t go back, I can only move forward. I’m trying my best to be better and do better .

I hope whenever someone reads these blogs, they’ll be motivated. Not in nutrition necessarily but in anything. Anything is possible as long as you tell yourself you can do it. So say it out loud, write it down, and get it done! Cause I know I am.

Till tomorrow!

Be.mindful

Woke up: 116.6 lbs

Today, I actually got 6 hours of sleep and again, woke up before my boyfriend’s alarm. We went to the gym to complete our “fasted” cardio. Since we’ve been getting a little under 6 hours of sleep recently, we decided to take the cardio lightly and just cycled for 30 minutes. I took my allotted whey and water with me and completed my exercise. I have been watching Ted Talks as well as documentaries during these steady state cardio sessions, so time tends to fly by. Currently, I’m watching The Bleeding Edge. It’s devastating how medical devices have caused such horrific consequences to these poor women. I still have about 30 minutes left so I’ll have to save my comments for another time!

Meal 1

20g of Whey with water

My post cardio meal was the usual breakfast except I had to rush and get ready for work. So again, my boyfriend prepped my breakfast for me and packed it for me to go. Since my job is about 30 minutes away, I ate my food on the go. Took a few bites before I realized I didn’t take a picture!

Meal 2

7.5mL of EggBeaters

1 piece of whole wheat toast

1/2 cup of baby spinach

I didn’t have any baby spinach left, so I just went with what I had. Also, I completely forgot to grab almonds, so I’m short on fats. It’s quite alright, people. We improvise! Consistency is key, remember that.

Oddly enough, I wasn’t very hungry when it was time for meal 3, so I had my all time favorite protein bar – Oatmega Chocolate Mint. Delicious! One of the many reasons why I always buy this brand is that it fits my macros perfectly! The fat, the carbs and the protein! Although this doesn’t have or count as veggies, it does have a sufficient amount of fiber, so it’s a win-win all around.

Meal 3

1 Oatmega Chocolate Mint Protein bar

This bar held me over until minutes before I was leaving work. I got extremely hungry so I ate the prepped meal I had. I had a feeling I would get hungry especially after just eating a protein bar, so I ate the following:

Meal 4

1 oz turkey sausage

1 oz chicken breast

3 oz of raw bell peppers

40g of cooked white rice

About an hour and some change later, it was lifting time! Quick sets of exercises and a few supersets later, it was time for meal 6. Ah, for meal 5 I had the whey and intra carb workout.

Meal 5

20g of strawberry Whey protein

13g of Gatorade Lemonade Powder

No picture of the shake – nothing to see there. Honestly, it was a little hard to drink this especially since I ate meal 4 a little over an hour prior to working out.

Once I got home and showered, I had my sixth meal.

Meal 6

3 oz of chicken

2 oz of broccoli

3 oz of cucumber

1 oz of sweet potato

20 almonds

The almonds were consumed about an hour later because I totally forgot to have them. So, I bought a little pack of almonds from the vending machine.

And finally, to wrap up today — Casein mud! Literally, the dessert I long for every day.

Meal 7

20g Vanilla Casein

1 tbsp peanut butter

Can’t wait for tomorrow’s lifting session! Stiff leg deadlifts are always fun. 😊

Gah! Another day of 5 hour sleep. Why, body? Why! Haha it’s okay, I feel alive and ready to get the day started. The only difficult task to do on rest days like these is to NOT WORK OUT. I’m so used to waking up this early and going straight to the gym, but I’m going to use the next thirty minutes or so to read some MCAT stuff.

Woke up: 117.4 lbs

Meal 1

3 oz of Turkey Sausage

1 cup of Baby Spinach

Since today is a rest day, meal 1 doesn’t get any carbs. It’s okay, I can do this! Any who, I’m off to work with a cup of coffee and I’m anticipating meal 2’s arrival!

So meal 2 was a little late as far as it being 3-5 hours post meal 1. I had meal 2 nearly around 1130AM which was about 6 hours after meal 1. I wasn’t very hungry anyway, but I’ll be honest it’s very hard to eat food that early in the morning without getting some stares from some co-workers.

3 oz. of chicken

2 oz of broccoli

15g of Cashews

(Totally forgot to put my carbs in😭)

Don’t fret though, I made sure to distribute the carbs in my remaining meals. Quite frankly, I’m amazed I forgot the most important and delicious part of every meal! Caaaaaaaaaaaaaaarbs!

I don’t have any pictures for meal 3 because the instant I got home from work, I raided the kitchen and got the quickest thing I could eat. Knowing days like these may come, I made sure not to have any junk food in the apartment. I made myself a peanut butter toast and a bowl of Greek yogurt, which covered a bit of my carb from meal 1, and then the carbs, protein and fats from this meal.

113.5g of Greek Yogurt

1 piece of whole wheat bread

1 tbsp of peanut butter

For those of you that are getting acclimated with the RP Diet: I know RP recommends to stay away from dairy products (or foods not on the template) if you want dieting to be a breeze, but you can totally do it if you put in the math work. All you have to do is count all the macros listed on the nutrition fact label! Thus, the Greek yogurt I ate covered the protein I’m allowed for my meal 3 and the additional 5g carbscovered a portion of the carbs I was supposed to consume in the previous meal. I still had 10g carbs so that was added on a later meal! This brings me to meal 4.

3 oz of ground beef

1 cup of baby spinach

1 multi grain wrap

20g of white rice

Because I didn’t time my carbs adequately, I had the most absurd sugar craving an hour after meal 4. I don’t know why but I couldn’t stop thinking about ice cream!! Fortunately, I still had meal 5 – my casein “mud” that I literally adore. So that helped with my sugar craving ! 🤗🙏🏽

Meal 5

20g of Casein

1 tbsp of peanut butter

That’s it for today! Not too many meal pictures today. Sorry!

Weigh in: 117.8 lbs

Another day, another dollar! I woke up at 5:30am today – this is when my body decided to get up. Just so you’re all aware – I don’t ever set up alarms. My body just naturally wakes up around 530/6am. My boyfriend on the other hand sets up his alarm every day. It’s nice to have that sometimes (in case I oversleep) but today I woke up 30 minutes earlier than my boyfriend’s alarm. Therefore, I slept a solid 5.5 hours which I’m not very happy with. But if my body said it’s time to get up, well, I guess it was time to get up!

Meal 1

10 g of Whey with water

I’m usually supposed to have 20g of whey but of course I ran out of Whey protein today. I went to the gym for a solid 35 minutes to do some quasi-fasted cardio on the elliptical.

I got home, showered and started getting ready for work while my amazing boyfriend made my breakfast. (Side note: my boyfriend is truly one of a kind and I swear I am the luckiest girl in the world. You’ll notice I talk about him a lot. #sorrynotsorry )

Meal 2

7.5 tbsp of EggBeaters

3 oz of cucumbers

1 whole wheat toast

10 almonds

Meal 3

It’s so hard eating at work especially before everyone goes on their lunch break, but it’s gotta get done if I want to stick with the nutrient timing!

2 oz of chicken

3 oz of Brussels sprouts

2.7 oz of sweet potatoes

15 g of cashews

Meal 4

Just got home from work and I thought it was gym time (lifting session) but my boyfriend had to get a small procedure done so I’m waiting for him to get out! Ergo, time to have meal 4!

2 oz of turkey sausage link

1 piece of whole wheat toast

1 cup of baby spinach

15 g of cashews

Lifting session done – again, I still don’t have any whey so I didn’t consume the whey and intra workout. I’m trying very hard to stay on the template, but so far as you can see I’m about 95% compliant.

Meal 5

The best meal is always the one that follows a workout. Extra carbs = loads of happiness.

3 oz. of chicken

2 oz. of broccoli

0.5 cup of baby spinach

Notice, no carbs or fats. Because.. wait for it! The best part of tonight was: the oatmeal raisin cookie ice cream sandwich! I’m counting my double post workout carb as my cookies and my fats as the soft serve. That’s quite alright, right? 🤫

9:45pm now, it’s time to go to bed! Another full day at work tomorrow but at least tomorrow is a rest day! The only sad part of tomorrow is I get very little carbs. 😭

Weigh in: 118.2 lbs

Today I woke up at 6am, I thought I was going to head to the gym early but unfortunately my boyfriend wanted to sleep in. I took advantage of the free time and started cooking for the week. I usually eat the same things all the time so I made chicken, Brussels sprouts, and Sweet potatoes.

Meal 1:

118g of Greek Yogurt nonfat plain

1 oz of strawberries

2 oz of cucumbers

10 almonds

We went to the gym and did a quick session but because it was short and I hardly felt like I trained at all, I took it as a non training day. I didn’t consume my whey and intra workout carb today. Not sure if that was a good call or not, but figured I didn’t need it since it didn’t feel like I worked out much.

Meal 2

2 oz. of smoked salmon

2 buttermilk flapjacks

1 cup of fruit

(Ignore the potatoes in the picture – I didn’t have those)

I went to work right after having 2 and of course I forgot to pack my food with me, so I had to wait until I got home.

Meal 3

3 oz. of chicken

2 oz. of Brussels sprouts

2.7 oz. of Sweet Potatoes

Since I technically skipping a meal and I also didn’t get my fats in yet, I made an executive decision and decided it was okay to have a small piece of banana bread from Bob Evans.

Meal 4

1 piece of Banana Bread

I know, I know. I feel horrible about it considering I said I wouldn’t go off track of my diet but honestly it’s not that bad! I think it definitely fit my macros. It’s unfortunate that I really don’t know since I can’t track all the macros, but I have a feeling I didn’t go over at all. Plus I have to give it to myself, I only had one and I didn’t even have any sugar cravings today! 😝

Meal 5

20g of Casein

1 tbsp of peanut butter

10 almonds

That’s it for today’s meals! Day 3 tomorrow!

P.S. although it’s nice having someone to do this diet with, it really sucks that my bf is trying to gain weight and I’m trying to lose weight. The amount of food he gets per meal is so depressing. I wish I was allowed to eat that much !

Currently 6:33am and I’m on route to the gym. I didn’t get a chance to post pictures from yesterday’s last hoorah but I’ll tell you I wasn’t as excited as I am today! I am so ready to take on this challenge and see how I look and feel after 12 weeks. 84 days, that’s all.

So here are my numbers as far as starting day:

Weight: 118.2 lbs

Measurements:

• Arm 11.5″
• Waist 28.5″
• Hip 36.5″
• Leg 21.5″

I can already tell this is going to be a lot of work but I know I can do it. It’s all a mental game. Everything in this world is a mental game.

Remember, you are your worst enemy and your best friend, so tread carefully and use that to your advantage.

Now, let the day begin!

I’ve decided to save my morning blurbs and wait until later in the day to post the final entry. But I figured I’d record my meals as the day progresses.

This was my morning breakfast:

2 oz. of egg substitute

2 oz. of chopped up bell peppers (used cooking spray)

1 piece of Arnold Whole Wheat toast

11 Almonds

Smoothie:

1 cup of spinach

1 oz. of strawberries

Since I workout early in the morning, I get to eat the most carbs for breakfast. Technically I go with two slices of toast, but I figured I’d switch it up this time and do toast and some fruit.

Meal 3 consisted of a sandwich (Sorry, no picture! I was volunteering with Habitat for Humanity and ate the sandwich so quickly that I forgot to snap a picture)

2 oz of chicken

1 piece of toast

1/2 tablespoon of mayo

A pinch of Spinach leaves

2 oz of Broccoli

Meal 4 consisted of:

3 oz of chicken

2.7 oz of potatoes

2 oz of broccoli

11 almonds

I’m trying to track when and if I get cranky or have uncontrollable cravings. I’ve already got a little hangry and upset at my boyfriend today when we got back from volunteering. It was something very silly (got upset about him not wanting to carry the water bottle) but fortunately got over it within 5-10 minutes.

So far so good! I was a little exhausted today but that might have been because we only got about 5.5 hours of sleep last night. Anyway, it’s only 4:30pm and I still have two more meals so that’s something to look forward to! Haha

Meal 5

118g of Greek Yogurt (non fat and plain)

16g of Cashews

2.5 oz of Strawberries

3 oz of cucumbers

And lastly, I tried to make casein cookies with my boyfriend but they turned out like crepes. Haha totally unintentional, but I enjoyed them just as much. My boyfriend didn’t though 🤷🏻‍♀️

Meal 6:

20g of Casein

16g of Peanut Butter

1/3 cup of water

1 tsp of baking powder

1 oz of strawberries

That’s a wrap for today!

Ps I wound up taking a 2.5 hour nap after meal 4. I was so exhausted from volunteering all day! 😝