Day 7

Closing in on the first week, folks! I must say – yesterday was extremely tough for me. I went to the supermarket to buy some groceries, just a few things, and all I kept wanting to do was buy all the junk food I love. I wanted to binge so badly and eat my emotions away. I was so close to throwing all of this away and then I stopped. I thought, how can I do this to myself? What really put a halt to these cravings was the thought of disappointing those that will eventually read my blog.

It’s only been week 1 and I’m supposed to be building better habits. I’m supposed to be stronger than the temptation. So I walked away, bought the two out of three items I went to the store for, and got in my car.

When I got home, I unloaded the groceries and went straight to bed.

I woke up at 4:30am again after going to sleep around midnight. You can already imagine the frustration! But, I had to pee. And, that meant it’s time to rise and shine.

I was having a slight stomach issue since last night – might have been all the veggies I had. So I waited until I used the bathroom in the morning to weigh myself for the day.

Originally seconds after waking up and peeing, I was 116.4 lbs. I later peed again and pooped (didn’t eat or drink anything; also it was probably 15 minutes after the first weigh in) and now:

Woke up: 115.8 lbs

Meal 1

3 oz Ground Beef

2 oz Broccoli

20 almonds

No carbs for meal 1 today coz’ today was a rest day! 😓

About 4 hours later, I had meal 2. Technically it was BREAKFAST since my boyfriend had just waken up. We had the usual:

Meal 2

7.5 mL of EggBeaters

1 piece of toast

2 oz. bell peppers

After debating and having petty little disagreements, we drove to the sunflower field. Cute little farm in Sanborn, NY. Took a few pictures and got to pick our own flowers. My boyfriend has been exceptionally patient with my behavior recently. Due to all the stressful decisions I have to make about my future recently, I’ve been very irritated and overall unbearable. Fortunately, my boyfriend understands my situation and is usually very good at calming me down. I truly do appreciate him and I tell him this all the time.

Once we got back from the sunflower field, we had our third meal of the day. We had some left over shrimp that we decided to split, so I had to different types of protein today.

Meal 3

2 oz of chicken

1 oz of shrimp

2.7 oz of potatoes

2 oz of Brussels sprouts

15g of Cashews

After running some errands we stopped at the grocery store for some bananas and Greek yogurt. Oh, and some cookies for tomorrow’s “cheat meal”. (Side note: I’ve been trying my best to fit in a cheat day once a week because my boyfriend truly hates dieting. Plus he looks forward to cheat day and I gotta make my man happy…and my tummy, of course!) So tomorrow while volunteering at HFH we are having some cookies for lunch. And then later in the day after some cardio, we are going to get that Churn ice cream cookie sandwich I posted the other day.

My last real meal happened around 630pm and it was:

Meal 4

4 oz of chicken breast

1 oz of potatoes

36g of cooked white rice

2 oz of Brussels sprouts

My last meal was clearly my casein mud. I tried making casein cookies for my boyfriend and they turned out meh. We need to figure out a way to make these more delicious. I stuck with what I’m used to and you can never go wrong with the casein mud. Here’s a picture of the attempt to make casein cookies.

Meal 5

20g of Vanilla Casein

16g of Peanut Butter

Till tomorrow, y’all! Week 1 done! As you can see it wasn’t perfect, but consistency is key.

P.S A little side note on my mood today. I was ridiculously moody and depressed. I’ve been crying every other hour and I was getting upset about random things all day. Not sure if this is due to my menstrual cycle starting soon or if it’s all the stress. I’m hoping this goes away soon. Luckily I have the most supportive boyfriend so he makes life much easier. God bless him ❤️

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