Day 6

Woke up: 116.2 lbs

Alright, my body has officially gone nuts! I slept 5 hours today and I swear I tried to go back to sleep, but my eyes popped open at 4:30am and there was no chance I was sleeping again. I had no other choice but to stay up. I read a little bit of biochem while I let my boyfriend sleep an extra hour before I started bugging him it was time for the gym.

Honestly, I should have just let him sleep. He was THE amazing boyfriend again! He let me sleep while he finished doing my laundry. I’m positive he slept about 4 hours. I swear, I don’t know how I got so lucky. I don’t deserve him! I love him to death for everything he does for me.

Anyway, nutrition! Meal 1 was whey and intra workout carb since we weight-lifted this morning.

Meal 1

20g of whey protein

14g of Gatorade powder

My post workout meal was on the go again. My protein was Greek yogurt, carbs were a piece of bread and half of a banana, and peanut butter for my fats. Didn’t include veggies in my meal, but don’t worry I made up for it later!

Meal 2

114g of Greek yogurt

1 piece whole wheat bread

56g banana

1 tbsp peanut butter

So, today the unexpected occurred. I was scheduled to volunteer at the hospital today, but plans changed and I wound up at work instead. I didn’t think I was going to be gone from my apartment for more than 4 hours so I never packed food. A planned 4 hr volunteer work turned out to a 6 hr day at the office. I had a pre-med advising meeting scheduled for 230 which I had to postpone to 3pm. As you can imagine, I went straight to my meeting after work and didn’t get home until 430pm. That’s when Meal 3 happened:

Meal 3

2 oz of shrimp

3 oz of broccoli

85g of frozen mixed vegetables

6 oz of red and orange bell peppers

2.7 oz potatoes

You see! I made up for my veggies! Haha luckily this stopped my hunger. I was starving and scared I was going to binge! I went for a 30 minute walk with my boyfriend and then I got ready to go work again! I took a protein bar with me so make sure I have something to eat later!

Meal 4

1 Oatmega bar

Once I got home, I got ready for bed. Read a little bit of my coursework and had my casein mud. Yum!

Meal 5

20g of Casein

1 tbsp peanut butter

I want you all to know today was a hard day. I really wanted to binge so badly. I wanted to just cry. Actually, I did. I balled out in tears the second I got in my car. The second I realized that I have to put in my 110% if I was to pursue my dreams. It’s not going to be easy, but if I really want this – I have to act now. I have to give it my all. You can see how frustrating this is for me. I wish I had the guidance I needed when I was younger. I wish I was more proactive and aware of how much my choices back then will affect my future. I can’t go back, I can only move forward. I’m trying my best to be better and do better .

I hope whenever someone reads these blogs, they’ll be motivated. Not in nutrition necessarily but in anything. Anything is possible as long as you tell yourself you can do it. So say it out loud, write it down, and get it done! Cause I know I am.

Till tomorrow!

Be.mindful